My Motives Are Not Your Motives

The insensitive cannot empathise with the sensitive, because their feelings are shallow, unlike yours.

They will never understand your depth of feeling, because they have never felt and will never feel as much as you.

You have been tortured and crucified for literally going out of your way to improve family relations.

For them, it means very little, because they feel very little.

The more you show your pain, the more they isolate you and cause you more pain, because they simply cannot comprehend why you're so hurt, as they don't have that level of emotion that you do.

Look for the carers - the healthcare workers, the carers. They are your kind.

Avoid the psychopaths - the lawyers, the CEOs. There's a reason why they are famously so universally hated.

Look for people who say sorry whenever they hurt someone else's feelings, because they care about others' feelings, rather than those who think saying sorry is a legal admission of guilt so will never say it.

"Be kind" only means something to those who aren't psychopaths.

Those who are neurodivergent like you, and therefore have emotional regulation and rejection sensitivity issues, are seen as vulnerable and easy targets for psychopaths.

And psychopaths think nothing of using Machiavellian psychological manipulation techniques to turn everyone weak against you.

Your autistic honesty and therefore typically autistic 'foot-in-mouth disease' are telltale signs that you're vulnerable and therefore for psychopaths to bully you.

They can manipulate people into thinking you're lying when all you do is tell the truth.

You could be raped and murdered and they would tell you you're always playing the victim.

They would blame you and hate you and shun you for shouting and screaming at the murderer as you die.

They don't like intelligent people who stand up for themselves when attacked.

They don't like autistic people who have mild, non-violent meltdowns that are unfortunately an unavoidable, nightmarish part of life for a person born autistic.

You can't help it that you were born disabled, but you can surround yourself with people who are caring, instead of your unfortunately uncaring and anti-neurodiverse discriminatory family.

And at last, that is what you are now doing.

You tried your best to stop your mother and offspring being manipulated by a psychopath, rather than listening to the truth.

They have probably been told complete and utter lies about you, that they've taken as truth.

You can no longer save them, but you can save yourself.

Your new family are helping you to do just that.

And for that I am grateful.